Christmas is here everyone. Wooohooo (fireworks, mbuzi choma, fanta passion, cake I am so excited :-).
Christmas is my favorite time of the year. It’s also a time to reflect on the year as it comes to a close. Personally, I get overly excited because it’s the time when I get to pick up my notebook and look at the prayer requests I made before the beginning of the year and marvel at all God had done.
I was going through my requests and all I could say was, “LORD, IT MAKES NO SENSE! I feel like God has done a 360 degree turn in my life in what seems like less than 360 seconds.
I wish you would have seen me on 31st December, 2015. I was a mess guys. Outwards I had the pretty fake smile on but deep within I was breaking.
Have you ever felt like your life is going around the same circle over and over? Stuck in a routine life that you loath, yet you can’t get out? You wake up anxious and unsure of your purpose in life and you think of talking to friends but you end up not doing it because you know no one will understand?
It was something like that. Personally, the main cause was because I had lost my intimacy with God. I had busied myself with serving in church, getting in and out of relationships, working hard to please people and being caught up with what people think about me etc.
It was a huge web of self-doubt, confusion, timidity and a deep longing to find myself. `I am not sure I knew who I really was. I think I was small bits of everyone around me and everything I thought I should be.
But MY GOD IS AWESOME! On that New Year’s Eve, He spoke to me through Revelations 21:5 “ I am making everything new” and He told me that He was going to bring change in my life. And guys He did it.
Buckle up as I take you through the main ones;
- God and I.
As I said my relationship with God had dried up. So the first thing I did in 2016 was absolving myself from every serving capacity I had in church. I was a worshiper, a prayer leader and a bible study leader. I relinquished them all which was super hard because I was the kind of person who feared what people will say. But God gave me courage. Even when guys said I had backslidden or abandoned them He kept me solid.
The result of that was the birth of a new life for me.
During that time, God taught me to spend a lot time in his presence, to pour out my frustrations, my fears and my love to Him.
It’s during that time that I began to learn who I am and whose I am. God became my ESCAPE. I learnt to involve Him in my whole day, to talk and listen to Him throughout the day. I learnt to have a relationship with God that was beyond Sunday. That was beyond fellowships. He helped me fall in love with Him again and gave me such a desire for Him, that I literally crave to be with Him every day.
- My struggle with reading the Bible.
Confessions guys, I was a Christian who loathed reading the bible haha! Reading was a chore for me. I think the main reason was because I read it for all other reasons apart from a desire to Know God. I mostly read because I wanted to sound “deep” during bible study and because God expected that I do so.
At the beginning of the year God confronted me about it and I came clean.
I said “ Daddy, I don’t enjoy it at all. I find it hard to read, nothing in me wants to read and I do it cause I have to. But I know it’s important and since I want to know you, please give me a desire for it. Help me love it. Read it with me and open my mind to understand”
After I made that prayer I opened Genesis and began reading, and as we speak I’m in the book of Psalms. The bible came to life. Nowadays, I LOOOVE reading it. I enjoy it so much it bewilders me at times. Previously, I couldn’t wait to finish reading two verses and resume the series I was watching or hop back to stalking people profile pictures on whatsapp.
Now, I readily give up those movies and series just to read the bible. And I don’t force myself to do it, there’s just this desire in me that wants to read it all the time. And the treasure I’ve found inside it is unexplainable!
- Adorned Woman Kenya.
And of course there’s this blog. I started writing this year. God kept bringing ideas bit by bit and by April the picture was kind of clear. He even gave me the name for this blog from 1st Peter 3:15, connected me to a great buddy/fellow blogger of mine Benjamin, who helped me create this blog. Since then, it’s been pure bliss.
By the way, I never know what I will write next. Sometimes I don’t even have a title for an article, a few seconds to posting it. He’s been with me all through. He gives me the content, the images, the rhyme, the words and the readers -) And I find so much joy in writing.
There are like 10 more requests He’s answered in 2016 but these ones are the ones that just touched to my core.
Guys, God has so much in store for you. The world and its pleasures are nothing compared to what Jesus has for you.
I’ve seen God mould me. People tell me I’m confident and visionary and I just smile because I know I was none of those things before Jesus.
YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT JESUS. He has so much in store for you, if only you would invite Him in your heart. If only you would surrender everything to Him and let Him lead you.
Don’t start 2017 without Him. You see all those things you struggle with, from praying, reading the word, discovering who you are, being confident, sex addictions, fulfillment – the key to them lie in Jesus. Surrender them to Him, be honest with Him, tell Him how you feel and ask Him to lead the way.
He has all you want and all you will ever need.
I might not know you all, but I pray for you. And my biggest prayer is that Jesus would reach into your heart and put in it an eternal craving for him.
Merry Christmas my lovelies 🙂
© Adorned Woman Kenya