My time with God used to suck!!! (it feels so good to say that) 😁
Of course I’d pretend that it was amazing, the whole fake it till you make it nonsense, but in all honesty , that quiet time we are told to have was a chore for me.
I used to have a very weird program. I’d begin by praying in tongues for a while, sing a bit , read Habakkuk 😂 and after what seemed like 5 hours I’d pat myself on the back, only to check my watch and realize I’d only been there for a solid 5 minutes. 😕
Then I tried morning glory. Which worked pretty well because I’d pray for the first few seconds and snore on the church bench for the remaining time. 😥
After that, I would meet Mr. guilt faithfully waiting for me at the door. I’d condemn myself for not being prayerful enough like the rest and for not loving God enough to spend a lot of time with Him, like the way I do when I’m watching a series 😁.
But Somewhere along the way, this amazing prince of peace slowly helped me out of my religious tasks and began teaching me that what He really desires is a friend whom He can hang out with.
Imagine how you hang out with your close friends. I’m sure you don’t have a program that lists the activities you’ll do together. How boring would it be if my best friend and I met and were like “okay from 7-8 we’ll talk about how your date went, then from 8-9 we’ll watch a movie, then from 9-10 we’ll talk about that issue that’s been disturbing you etc …. That would be the world’s most boring relationship.
Relationships are spontaneous, fun and wild. Why do we put God in a box and turn Him into these weird guy who’s just waiting to see how well we can accomplish the tasks in our list and make him feel good about himself?
I’m learning that God loves to do the fun stuff I love to do. I love to draw, write, sing, nature and goof around and He loves it too.
One time I was walking with my girlfriends, Jos and Winfrey,
and I saw the sun setting from a distance. I left them and ran ahead to look at it. And as I’m there drinking in the beauty of the fiery red sky, Jesus said “I thought I’d steal you away for a moment so we can be alone” 😭 I cried.
Another time I was hurrying to go to my room and spend time praying. When I reached God said, “put on your sport shoes, let’s go for a nature walk.” And we spent that day wandering around looking at pretty flowers, talking, taking pictures.
Other times he’s like “Ivy get up and draw something, take your Bible and read etc
In short its not a defined schedule, it’s friends simply hanging out. I even do chores with Him and I’ve had crazy encounters with Jesus in the midst of washing dirty dishes, scrubbing the floor and cooking.
And my favorite one is when we just sit during our morning date (yes I now wake up in the morning. Not because I have to, but because He’s the first person I want to spend time with alone before I begin my day) We call it our hot morning date 😊.
Sometimes I just put on some nice music, stretch myself on the sofa and let him hold me. I don’t even say much. I just sit there and feel his love wash over me, as he whispers sweet nothings to me.
And yes there are times it’s hard, especially when I’m walking through disappointments, fear and stress. In those moments it’s not as rosy but even in those moments when I feel He’s far away, I remember those times when we played together and how close He was and I choose to believe what he says rather than what I feel. And as I’m wading through the Mud, I know he’s there wading through the mud with me…
My encouragement today is invite him into those things you think he isn’t interested in. Sit down with him and ask Him, “Jesus what can we do today together??”
You’ll feel a desire in your heart to do a particular thing. Follow that. He leads by putting His desires in our heart.
Be a little child with him, ask him those silly questions, tell him what’s hard, tell him what you fear, let him see those ugly things you’re ashamed of showing, goof around. He loves your personality, so don’t pretend to be someone else.
Ask him to teach you how to enjoy being with him. And when it’s feeling sour, tell him “Daddy today hanging out with you feels quite boring, help me. Make it sweet”
He’s super faithful and don’t worry, your honesty won’t offend him. He isn’t like us.
I pray he blows your mind as you spend time with him.