One and a half years ago, I went through a life changing experience. At the time, it didn’t feel life changing. It felt horrible, dreadful, like my life had come to an end and worst of all I kept having flashbacks of my proud little self telling my girlfriends how I’ll never allow myself to go through a heartbreak. Yet there I was, having pyjama parties with tears as the main dish 😀
I broke up with the guy I thought was the one two days after my birthday. We had met each other’s families, planned our lives together and I was sure I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. But life took a sharp turn and I was tossed into the valley of heartbreak and sorrow. The first night I slept in my mom’s bed and called in sick at the place I was working. The weeks after that were filled with me slipping into the bathroom to bawl out my eyes in the middle of work.
So many times, I thought I had done a mistake and wanted to call and ask him to come back. When I broke up with my ex, the first thing I told God is “I am tired. I don’t want to date anymore and you know how great I am at rebounds so I need you to protect me for myself’ This is because for so long, I was the girk hopping from one relationship to another, looking for fulfillment in the arms of a man.
I’ve been single for one and a half years without a situationship or rebound and that my friend is a miracle. ( I think I should throw myself a party 😀 )
Yesterday, I was talking to my little sister about my journey being single and the many things I’m discovering and I thought to myself “maybe there are other sisters or even brothers out there whom I could share this journey that I’m on with through my writing”
With that in mind, I’m adding another category to my blog which will be called single lane, where we will walk on my single journey (however long it will be :-D.
I hope that I can learn from you too, whether you’re singe or not, because at the end of the day none of us knows it all.